You are not a helium head.

Some deprecate themselves as "balloonatics" or "helium heads," and with good reason: who but long-duration balloonists would spend millions of dollars to put themselves in deadly danger and the near certainty of failure?

Each failed attempt to circle the world generally plunges a balloonist into gloom, but hope springs eternal, and there is nothing like a short rest to revive the faith of the confirmed "helium head" that circumnavigating the world nonstop is possible.